Every week I release a song I'll be releasing some album notes on it. Keep in mind that this is only what the song means to me and I don't want to have any influence on what the music means to you. If Endorphin reminds you of washing the dishes, so be it. If it reminds you of doing that crazy party you went to or makes you feel like a sumo wrestler is sitting on your chest, awesome. Keep that. The only reason why I write these is for the sake of curiosity and so that a couple years from now I can look back on this and go "Oh yeah! I remember now...".

Music is personal, and it's not my place to tell you how to interpret my work.

Enjoy!
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The skeleton of 1900 was the product of a 6 hour layover during Thanksgiving break. The first verse came to me in the airport, and the piano part was something I'd had in the back of my head for a couple weeks after I had listened to Nine Inch Nail's The Slip one time too many.
I was tired and frustrated because of how slowly things were coming with The Way Out Is Through and everything regarding music just had an overwhelming sense of deja vu because I'd gone through this process twice before with past projects (Faster! Faster!, and my first real band, Arsenic and Lace). I felt old because it was nothing new, and dirty because it was so formal (but necessarily so, lord knows I know what happens when you don't keep it pro.) Nothing was fun, all of it was on auto-pilot, and none of it was interesting to me anymore.
For example, I make all the musicians that are heavily involved in The Way Out Is Through sign a contract so that they know what's expected from them, what the procedures are for booking, what my responsibilities to them are, where they make their cut of the profits, etc. While this has certainly helped the band tremendously because everyone knows what's up and there's never any ambiguity, it feels a little dirty sometimes because it's not nearly as organic as just getting a bunch of friends together and jamming for the hell of it you know?
At the end of the day resolution for ever problem I've had in this genre of bullshit (including this one) came in the form of just having a great group of guys that I'm truly blessed to be working with. Some of the guys have had bad experiences with under-managed bands before and didn't want to repeat history, while the other guys that don't have a love of experience with bands just didn't want to do it if it wasn't going to be done right.
The individuals in this band continue to blow my mind every practice. It hasn't even been a month of rehearsals but things are going at such a breakneck speed that for the first time I'm worried about keeping up with the others as opposed to going too fast. Andy, Zach, Esteban, Sean, Dan, I couldn't thank yall enough for yalls awesome work. Yall are the best.


Lyrics:
I feel like I've been here forever,
My feet are rooted in these petals, I am the piano man,
No green, I run on adrenaline,
I'm dirty like I'm Huey P. Long,
I'm an age old story cuz I'm caught in the wrong age,

Chorus:
Times goes on, I feel so old,
I feel like I've been here, a million times  before
I can't trust, no, I can't feel, this cynicisms killing me,
I swear

Tell me,
Can you hear me out there?   
Or are my words so drenched in useless that I, that I can't even sing this song.
It's getting harder to breathe.
Is that the alcohol? Or is it her chest against mine?
I thought she'd been gone for so long, that I'd forgotten what it means,
am i alive?

Chorus

I was tired of playing the same thing,
I was tired of playing the same gigs,
I was sick of a life on repeat,
I was sick of a life that was set for defeat,
I don't want a small corner of the globe,
I wanna take it over!
I wanna live out loud like I'm one of the best,
I wanna party in the streets with all of the rest,
I wanna give it all, give everything
I wanna do it all, I wanna be king
I wanna play so loud everyone can hear,
I don't wanna live my life like it's safety and fear,
I want all yall to hear this song and lend me your voice,
I want to give all yall a bunch of reasons to rejoice,
I wanna make you scream, I wanna make you shout
Give you tons of reasons to crank it loud,
I wanna give you strength, I wanna give you hope,
Get you through your worst days, when they're out of control
I'm gonna give it all I've got while my body's hot,
Every fiber of my being 'till my body drops,